I walked across a stage last Friday, and everything changed. I am a grad.
Well, almost. I have a D.S. class to finish. Always something.
But, let me tell you, that D.S. was the last thing on my mind as I walked across the stage last Friday night. Actually, the main thing I thought about was not tripping in my heels in front of a football stadium full of people. But somewhere amid my thoughts was the realization that four years of semi-stability have come to a close, and now the whole great big world is wide open to me. There are no classes and no professors who will give me a grade on how well I do. Those kind of “micro-accomplishments” aren’t good enough. Every step I take now is a step into uncharted territory.
And yes…I took the first fifteen or so without tripping. I’m so thankful for everyone who came to support me! My whole family, including my Avô and Avó and my Grandma, made the long trip, and several friends came to support me as well. I am not one to make a big deal about ceremonies like this, so I didn’t really tell or invite anyone, but the fact that people came warmed my heart.
So here I am, on the other side of the stage. I am home for two weeks, but after that I’ll be moving back down to Southern California for work. I’m really excited about this next stage of life and thankful for the doors God has opened for me so far. I’ll be blogging more faithfully now, with more time on my hands for creative writing, so check back often! There have been a lot of articles floating around in my thoughts waiting for an opportunity to get out. I’m excited to dive headfirst into creative writing again. I have so much to say and share! And I appreciate all of you who are faithful to keep checking this blog after weeks of zero updates. Seeing the visitor count still high stabs me with guilt! You deserve better! So I’ll be writing more. I have lots of ideas that I can’t wait to implement. In the meantime, please write to me, because I prefer this blog to be a two-way street and I love hearing from readers.
You may be wondering about the title of this blog post. Last Thursday, one of my best friends got married (still can’t believe Raqel is now a Mrs. — talk about life changes!). The wedding, and the week the bridal party got to spend with her and her parents beforehand, deserves a post of its own, so I’ll write that soon. But the song Raqel and Maddy played for their first dance has been stuck in my head ever since their wedding (“Box of Stones” by Benjamin Francis Leftwich), and it basically sums up how I feel as a fresh-off-the-football-field college graduate. I am young, I am yours, I am free, but I am flawed. Praise God that, despite my youth and all my flaws, I belong to Him. Anyone who knows me can tell you that change is very hard and intimidating for me to face. I don’t do well when I feel that things are coming to an end. Knowing this, I spent the last week of college trying to focus on the Lord and His plans for me instead of on my own fears about the uncertainties of the future, and He has been gracious to quiet those fears and to give me confidence and excitement as I look ahead.
My fellow grads: graduating from college is one of the biggest and scariest life changes, and it’s also one of the ones we are least prepared for. There are lots of books on marriage, choosing a college, dating, retirement, finding a career, etc. but very few on that yawning “What now?” emotion that hits you on the other side of the graduation stage. But the fact is, the same faithful God who has led you all these years guides you still. Don’t be afraid: take heart and stand firm, and know that He who has begun a good work in you will be faithful to see it finished! I am excited for you, because I know that the God who owns you is greater than all your fears. Press on, college grad! God does some of His best work in uncharted territory.